Monday, August 22, 2011

My mom's battle

My mom last October at my wedding

My mom in May of this year
Well it has been awhile since I have posted. I have had a lot going on! My mom is not doing good we have had a hellish three weeks. She got an infection, had brain fluid leaking from her incision from her second surgery and was unconscious for almost 10 days. Dr's said she probably wouldn't wake up. I rushed down there to be by her side. On the tenth day they told my dad it was time to make a descision if she stayed on the ventilator and feeding tube she ran the risk of pneumonia, or infections. So he had them pull it all off. Well she did wake up after ten days the day after I left Texas.She was alert at first minimally then became more and more alert was trying to speak but it was hard for her. Last Friday they decided she needed to do plastic surgery to skin graft over the incision which was still leaking. She got through the surgery but for some reason they decided to pull the lumbar drain they had put in 2 weeks prior right after the surgery. This caused her to have fluid build up in her brain and she became unconscious again and another infection. My dad called me late Saturday night to tell me all this and Dr.s said she wouldn't make it through the night. Well it's now Monday and she is still struggling.She is unconscious and unresponsive,her heart rate is jumping to 140 and 150 breathing is very ragged,they think her kidneys might be shutting down, and she still has an infection. She is so tired and just wore down. Cancer is an awful disease that ravages the body and destroys it. We are all at the point we don't want to see her go through anymore pain and suffering. We have tried everything we just want her at peace. She will probably be moved to hospice tomorrow. I hate the fact I live so far away and had to come back to my life. I'm moving in a week we have bought an old house that needs lots of work, and moved my shop to an antique mall so I could have more free time to see mom thinking we had some more time then what we had. lIfe sure has a way of throwing everything at you at once! We will get through this I know it will take time but take my advice and never pass up a chance to tell someone you love what they mean to you cause you just never know! I can honestly say I feel at peace with the fact that while I was there I told her I loved her and if she needed to go I would miss her but I would be fine just want her to not suffer. I also promised her that I would do what she insisted in the last few months every time I talked to her and that was to be happy, love what I do and love the people in my life with all I have. Traci  

6 comments:

  1. I still continue and will continue to pray for you and your family, my heart breaks for you....I am so very sorry that you all have to experience this....my thoughts are with you! Xoxoxo ~Ashley

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  2. Traci, I am so sorry. I went through a similar experience with my father, and it was one of the most difficult times of my life. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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  3. i'm so sorry to read about your mother. there are no words, just know that you and your family are in my thoughts.

    xo
    molly

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  4. sorry.....sweet friend. life does throw us curveballs. Congrats on the new/old house.

    thinking of u.....may u have calm and peace,not only in your everyday but your heart too.

    I deleted my blog......life got in the way but i will stop by from time to time :0) Sheri

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  5. Even in her pain she is encouraging you still.What a blessing it was just to read this. I take away from this post desire... real desire to continue to try and fix my relationship with my own Mom.You have been missed by the way.~Meme

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  6. Blessings and prayers for you, your Mom and family.

    Take care of yourself too.

    Melinda

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